Sigh....

What a terrible week i've been having... work is just piling up and it would help if i know how to do them exactly but i spent most of my time figuring out how to do them right. My friend is mad at me *i think*, because of something hurtful i should not have said and having an argument is just very disturbing.. I figured out that this is one of the things that havent changed much in me. I feel very very disturbed when my friend or when someone close to me is angry with me or vice versa. Sigh, I guess that's nothing surprising... I still remember when i was in primary school I had one very very close friend. We called each other EVERY DAY :s. But one day she just suddenly turned cold at me I had no idea why :s. So I cried and I felt so not at peace, then I decided to wrote her a letter asking her why she was so mad at me. I can't recall the reason now, i think it was because of some very kiddy reason like she was jealous i was playing more with another kid or i dunno hahaha... anyway we made up very soon..sigh kids... how i wish i could go back to those times sometimes.

I remembered there was another time in class, d naughty boys were running around playing and fighting and throwing things. One of them took my ruler and broke it. I cried in the class because my mum just bought for me that nice ruler. So the teacher made him apologised to me and the next day he bought me exactly the same ruler hahaha..... but i told him i didn't cry because it was a nice ruler, but because it was from my mum...sigh how sentimental i was haha...

Adults are so much more complicated.. you can write them letters or buy them a new ruler and they would still be angry... it seeems that we can forgive and forget so much more easily when we were young... Another question is, when you keep having arguments with someone, is it better to find ways to fix it or just avoid them? Of course it would be good to find the source of the problem and solve it but huh...if dat is so easy i guess there wouldnt be so much divorces and fighting these days...

For example, i keep fighting with my sis every now and then, and even more often now dat we stay together... from petty things to i dunno wat... we had our best time when i came here and she was still in indo, because everytime i came back, we would just be so good together.. funny huh.. i just feel that we have totally different characters, rather opposing in fact, and it's just difficult to understand her.

Anyway...just sharing some thoughts, it's one hot sunny boring saturday afternoon and i just don't know what better things to do. I feel like going ice skating or swimming but sigh... so lazy to step out of the house... plus, no company.. can i sigh again?... sorryy....