I'm lost...

Have heard of the saying u never know how much something is worth till u lose it, or something along that line, and i just lost my fridge just now... i mean i sold it and realise that my fridge is worth $130 which is a 200 dollars lost after 3 years.. sorry it's lame =P... i mean i juz realise that my fridge is really dear to me now that i dun hav it anymore.... i can't keep my water jug cold, can't buy anymore meiji milk or jellies = (... well 1.5 more week till i move into my new shelter with a new fridge hehe...

I haven't been blogging for sometime already... something i just notice about blogging, it seems like another bubble-tea phenomenon now that i heard very little about blogs anywhere... anyway, here's d update...i'm feeling kinda lost...which apparently claimed by my friends to be a common symptom experienced by graduating students... this is sad...I'm questioning one main thing these days that is what is it that i really want to do in my life???... I've always believed that everybody is born with a vocation...we are meant to be somebody...whether it is an engineer, a teacher, an office worker, a farmer in ireland or an engineer, ok i said that alreadi... i mean there are lots of kind of engineers u know... so what is my vocation... i expect not a direct answer but at least dun i have any clue???

After some thinking and counselling and meditating and praying.... *yet to got to a cave in d himalayan and hibernate..i mean meditate* i think i'm kinda sure that i wanna be a teacher... at least that is one career that excites me... unlike the rest...yet the thoughts and the suggestions that i should try to go into the industry before jumping into the deep blue sea of education world...being a teacher is a life time commitmment *heck, i dunno how to spell dat*...and i'm not quite sure whether i'm ready for that... well it's not the end of the world if i find teaching not suitable and i wanna go back to be an engineer..but the reality is that engineer->teacher is easier than teacher->engineer... plus higher teaching pay for the former choice haha...

Sounds like i'm babbling over such a petty thing huh... i can hear the yelling again *then try engineering first before teaching lah, isn't dat obvious u idiot -/-'... u can always go into teaching anytime...* aarggghhh i hate that.... i must be the one of d most indecisive, impulsive, confused living being right now...or at least i feel that way... i hate this....

ok, now i dunno what to write because i'm confused hahaha... i'll continue some other time coz i'm real sleepy now..and i have an interview tomorrow.. i can't even remember d post i applied for...goodnesss...