11 200 km away yet the thought.....

Recently my friend showed me an article from the net about controlling the desire to get married which affects many women in indonesia. I don't remember the exact title but it discussed the syndromes many women experience in their late 20s, wanting to get married so badly due to pressure from family and society. Many of them clinging so hard on unhappy relationships because of the fear of not being married by the age of 30. It mentioned the society's perception that being divorced is better than being an old virgin -what???-. In the end it did give some good tips on keeping your conscience clear that we should not be obsessed about getting married, though it can be difficult when your biological clock is ticking away.

I guess I'm experiencing this myself, i mean not the syndromes, but the inclination of suffering from these syndromes have begun :s...I have my own target of my marriagable age and that would be hopefully way before 30, i mean like 5 years ahead mmm.... And the thought of never having known someone 'special' disturb me at times. I can't say i'm worried about being an old virgin *sounds pathetic*, but there are times when i really hope that i have someone i can share my life with...like many other people in many parts of the world i guess. I wonder how it would be like to have someone who cares deeply about you and you care deeply about, whether it would be so lovely like everyone has said, and probably not so lovely after a year or so like everyone has said too haha...

And i can't help but recalling on my old crushes =p...Had one in high school which i adored for 3 years :s:s...and the closest i got to him was shaking hands with him during a retreat but he didn't even knew me:s This is what a friend of mine calls a 1o-metre crush haha...means adoring someone from afar but never get the chance to know him. Then another 1 in college which is also a 10-metre crush hahaha....and another rrr more than one in Uni hehehe....which are NOT 10-metre crushes but perhaps 2-metre haha...which is to say we are friends but not in any way close. Currently??? Someone sometimes i wish i had not known yet some other times glad to have known...someone who irritates me enough for his oblivion yet makes me smile with his care...someone i should have the least expectation about yet makes me expect so much...is very much occupying my mind....Don't worry there's still space for formulas and equations =p

I know i know...11 200 km away from singapore in a beautiful country waiting to be explored, with all the gorgeous bules -u think...i tell u they are not so- and all i think about is...?? =p ..Well, today i actually explored somemore parts of Limerick!!!! =) will tell ya some other time ok...Going for a trip tomorrow!!! Hope it will be fun.....